20 Minutes To Go

I have 20 minutes until my dad picks me up for baseball so what better time to blog? I won't bore you all with the details of today I'll just say it was another good day. Nothing to complain about, in fact I got some Econ done at home!

But the talk for tonight is about death. I thought about death for the first time in a long time two days ago...

To me death is a strange, very distant idea. I'm not scared of death, but I'm curious about it. I have no reason to be scared because I've lived my life to the fullest but I still wonder what dying will be like. I wonder if I'll get the chance to look back and examine my life, I wonder if there is a heaven, but more than either of that I wonder if I'll accept death. I don't ever want to be afraid of death. I always claim I'm not afraid of anything, aside from snakes and spiders that is.

Death seems so far away to me, but how do I know when I'm going to die? I can't. That just isn't how it works. Those aren't the rules. I like to think that there is a heaven or some kind of great beyond where I'll get to see my Nan again. I'd love the chance to talk to her just once, to see what she thought of me. I hope that until the day I die I live life regret free and happily.

I want to live a long prosperous life, maybe to the age of like 90? I want to be able to move around still and have my mind though. They say all you have in this world is your word, and when my word becomes lost and isn't really my word I don't want to stick around much longer. More than age I want to get the most out of my years. I want to retire as young as possible and travel the world with my wife. I want to have a beach house like my grandfather and be able to bring my family down whenever they want. I want to golf a ton and I want to read a gajillion books. I want to be an extremely cultured, intellectual old man. One who inspires his kids and grand kids to be the best they can. Basically I want to end up a lot like my Pap.

I'm not afraid of death at all, it's this living thing that's scary.

Just playing, life isn't scary at all. Life is good.

Valentines day tomorrow and still no date. Not complaining though. I just like the idea of being someone's valentine and taking them out to eat. The offer is still on the table though. Anybody can accept because this is an open invitation...except you Levi. You can't accept it. Only because you already have a valentine. Make her feel special kid, because every girl deserves that. Every. Last. One.

NP: Fine By Me- Andy Grammer