Scrimmage #2

On the bus ride home from the game I figured I'd say what's on my mind. We played well again today, steady improvement if you ask me. I know we can play better though. I'm excited to see us put it all together. I know we will, it's just a matter of when  and how long we can keep it up. As I've said before, this year could be a promising one for a return to the playoffs.

Before the game I tweeted about it and Coach D tweeted back at me. Coach D has slowly become my favorite coach. His attitude towards the game and life is so positive and fun. He knows how to have a good time at baseball and it's evident he loves being out there with us. Some of the stuff he said in the dugout today, stuff I can't repeat, absolutely cracked me up. Coach D quotes Dodgeball constantly, but his best attribute has to be that he knows when he needs to be serious. Coach D is a young guy, but a guy who seems to have a plan. For only being twenty some years old he is already married, which in my eyes is admirable. I know that if and when Coach D and his wife have kids those kids will be lucky to a dad like him. I feel lucky to have him as a coach.

Aside from baseball I've been thinking about something else. I'm beginning to feel somewhat detached but it isn't a bad detached. It's a detached that is protecting me. I can't help but wonder if that's a good thing or not though. I don't want to miss any opportunities. Especially a great, great one. I feel like maybe I'm trying to protect myself. I'm sure whatever is meant to be will be and all that jazz.

For now I'm going to stay positive and keep a smile on my face because if there is one thing I control everyday it's whether or not I put a smile on... Still something about not being good enough dwells inside me. Inadequacy and losing are my two biggest fears and I feel like I'm always facing them both on the baseball field and off.

I owe a shout out to another Zanella. Julie Zanella gets this shout out. I don't know her at all, but if she's a sister and friend of Scottie's then she is a friend of  mine. Also being the daughter of the notoriously wise Frau Zanella means she must have some idea what's going on.

The NP for tonight is a song I was introduced to by my buddy T-Will. It carries a lot of meaning about finding the right woman. If you listen you'll hear it's about finding the one who is amazing enough to keep you from the other things you used to think were important. It's about finding the right one. Can't wait til I find a "Woman Like You."