Rejection

Last night I fell asleep at 10:30. Truly a miraculous feat for myself. After baseball and ice cream with the team I came home and just sat around in a weird mood before I went to bed. I laid there for a while texting and thinking.

As I started dozing off a bit I decided to check my email...bad decision. In my inbox I found an email from William and Mary. It was a rejection.

The immediate feeling I felt was inadequacy. It isn't even like William and Mary was my top school, I just hate being told I'm not good enough.

The rejection letter itself was annoying to read. They just bullshit you about how there are so many applicants and they can't possibly accept every student who would be successful there. They go on to wish you the best of luck in all future endeavors. Well thanks but no thanks. I don't need your well wishes after all that shit letter. I'd much rather it came right out and said why I was inferior. Why I wasn't enough. I know in my case it was my SAT scores. If standardized testing keeps me out of a school then that's okay with me.

Standardized testing doesn't come close to measuring my smarts or my standing as a person.

Despite how bitter I sound I'm not that upset. I still have to hear back from Fordham...which could be a good thing or a bad thing.

I feel like even a college can't tell me in not good enough. Sure they just did last night, but being told something is different from accepting it as the truth. I refuse to accept that as the truth. Call it arrogance, call it denial, call it what you want. I think of it as self realization.

I know my potential and what I'm capable of...actually even I don't know that. And that's the beauty of potential, just when you think you've reached yours, you gain more knowledge and your potential keeps going up. If there is one thing in life it's okay to come up short of it is your potential. That is as long as it's a positive shortcoming where you're always striving to be your best.

I fell asleep last night texting. I hate when I do that because I always have something else to say. I always have an answer for you. Even if the answer is another question, or if the answer is something rather uncertain. I'll never just leave you hanging. I'll wait in any coffee shop I have to, if that's what it'll take.

NP: Falling In Love At A Coffee Shop- Landon Pigg