I'm On a Roll

Today is actually my third really good day in a row. I have no reason for today to be a good day really, besides the fact that I went and got my tux for prom. I love getting dressed up as you all know by now. I'm not so much a fan of prom as I am of the whole dressing up and being with my friends. Dancing I could do without. If i had any say in it we would dance like they do in the new Footloose. (If you haven't seen the new Footloose I recommend you do, it was a quality flick.)

I'll give you a recap of Friday and Saturday so you guys can catch up on what I've been up to before i leave you with a recent thought of mine.

Friday was a good day because I slept in and got to school at the end of fourth period. School seemed to fly by and before you know it it was after school. Baseball practice Friday revealed a lot. We did relay races for conditioning and a lot of my fellow seniors were upset because all 33 kids from both JV and Varsity were practicing together. Personally I don't care because I always look for the best in every situation. I figure as long as I focus and get my reps in I'll be fine. Obviously practicing with 13 kids would be more productive but I'm not the coach and I'll do my job.Other kids on the team seem to think this is the end of the world, which it is not.

One teammate of mine, a senior, cried after the relay races because he was so frustrated with the way things are being run. I went into the locker room and explained to him that things were going to get better. I admire the fact that he cares enough about his senior season to cry over how things were being run.

After practice I went home and just hung out until Graz picked me up and we went to see Project X. It was as good as everyone made it out to be. The movie appealed to me, a non drinker, yet it didn't glorify drinking...okay maybe it kinda did. But I didn't feel anymore moved to go grab a bottle of Jack Daniels and start taking shots than I had before watching it. Not gonna lie, the day a party like that is thrown is the day I'll show up to a party. After the movie Ty brought Z Graz, Coach K, and myself home. I told Ty that I would take Josh home because Ty was worried about getting home after 11. My parent's are less strict about such things even though I just got my license. Driving Josh home was peaceful. It was nice to sit and talk with him just about life. He really is a younger version of myself only he has much more soccer skill.

Saturday I was lucky enough to work another youth camp (which I drove to). I love little kids until I lose their attention. Towards the end of the camp the kids were running rampant and disobeying orders like the order itself was to not listen. This is every kid except one. Scotty Zanella was the most calm, collected little kid I have ever seen. When his group came to my station I asked who wanted to go first. (Usually in such a situation all three kids raise their hands and start screaming.) In Scotty's group the other two kids did and Scotty kept his hand down. I asked Scotty if he wanted in go first and he said, "No, I'm okay with going last." I let the other two kids go and when it was Scotty's turn I made sure I asked him if he even wanted to go. I said, "Scotty you don't have to go if you don't want." But he assured me he wanted to go. He went and he scored pretty well. Little Scotty Zanella is a chill little kid. I liked his mindset the whole day. At the end he obviously didn't want to be there, but he persevered and finished strong. I have never had the privilege of talking with Frau Zanella, but everyone speaks highly of her and her son has obviously been raised well.

 I said earlier I would leave you with something I've been thinking about and I truly planned on doing that the only problem is I have nothing profound for you tonight. I haven't had any thoughts building up in my head recently and I think that's a testament to the good time I've been having.

I sat here for the last hour watching E:60 videos and one I just watched was about suicide. I've publicly criticized suicide as a cowardly thing to do. I partially stand by that assertion. You always have something to live for. Believe me you do. Even in the darkest days of life there is a light you will never see in death.  I realize that people suffer from depression or other sicknesses that make them feel worthless or lost. Those people just need to realize how good life is and it's our job to help them. This world we live in has a million evils, but I know for certain that for every evil you find you can find two goods. Here's a poem I just wrote for you guys to read.

There's a lot of hurt and hate,

a lot of pain in this state.  

But this life we live, 

this life we live is great. 

And no dark day,

no not even the darkest day.

Is reason enough to call it quits,

because life never really is the pits. 

So smile for yourself today,

and know that where there's a will, 

there will always be a way. 

I love you guys.

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