Opening Day

Tomorrow is opening day for the baseball team. 4:00 o'clockat Donaldson. If you don't have anything you should definitely make your way up there and watch some quality ball being played. It costs nothing to get in and it is a great opportunity to work on your tan. If you don't like being tan...well then stay home.

We had a good practice today and I think the team is ready for tomorrow. I guess we will see how ready we really are tomorrow at 4:00 o'clock though.

After practice today I got back to the school and went to watch some of the track scrimmage. I barely missed Jen's race which sucks! I intend on making it to several track meets to watch not only her but all my other friends on the team as well. Jen's a good little runner, not quite as good as Alexis O'Shea. That girl is a machine. She might not be as physically developed as the other girls, but she has something no coach can ever teach. The girl is mentally tough. When I say mentally tough I mean that there is something deep down that will not let her lose. I wasn't there to see but my Dad told me she was behind in one race by a good bit and Hamilton said something, just one or two words, and something in her went off. I love the drive she has. It's a drive not many people in this world have. She's already a hell of a runner and her best years are ahead of her.

After the meet I got a text asking if I was okay because I seemed kinda down today. I didn't think I was down, but I admit I am distancing myself. Not a bad distancing, like I said in previous blogs. It's a good distancing. Taking time to let myself think and just breathe. It feels pretty good.

Another thing that came up was dreams. Dreams are a wild, wonderful thing. Dreams are only dreams and in many instances the best dreams we have will never be acted on. Some dreams i would do anything to make a reality. What's nice to know is that people are looking out for you and thinking about you. That's something everyone likes to hear. But what about the thought that thinking about a person is all it might ever be? Quite a sad concept really.

There are people in this world I would do anything for. I'm not sure they would do the same for me, but that doesn't change the fact that I'd do anything for them. Sure reciprocation would be nice, but I don't need repaid for caring. That's one of my greatest downfalls at times; I care too damn much. But I won't stop caring just because it's a weakness of mine. Acknowledging that it's a weakness is, in my eyes, a strength. I'll always stick to the idea that it's better to care too much then to not care enough.

There are a select few people I can say I think about everyday. My Nan being one of them. My grandpa being another. My best friends being some others. My mom, Dad, and Jenny of course. And others as well. The others know who they are.

The people I think about daily are the ones I would do anything for. I'd give up anything for another day with Nan. A day alone with her and Pap, just talking. That would be a perfect day. I'll never have that day though, just like a dream I dreamt recently might never come. But I recognize a dream as a dream, and dreams are things we work towards. I'd sacrifice a hell of a lot to make a dream a reality, but for now I'll bide my time.

Much love everybody, life is good. I'll be the first to admit that.