It's Fixed and I'm Grateful

Today I retweeted a tweet my cousin had that really struck me. The tweet was, "One of those games you're gonna lose, but you want to play it just in case." That really hit me hard and spoke to me. 

I hate losing as much as anyone in this world. As much as I hate losing like my cousin Joey said, there are certain games you want to play just in case. You can go into a situation knowing the odds aren't on your side and that you actually don't have a chance...something about that makes the game even more desirable.

 I guess it goes back to the idea of wanting what we can't have. There really are some things in this world we can't have. I've learned that over time. You can do everything right: say the right things, act the right way, and try to be perfect in every way, but it doesn't mean you'll get what you want. 

Losing is terrible, but playing a game you know you're going to lose speaks volumes about your character. It shows that you want to prove yourself wrong, the odds wrong, and other people wrong. Even if you do lose, at least you fought. I'll always stand by the idea that if you fight for what you believe is right, you can never lose. 

I've lost battles I knew I was going to lose, and I've lost ones I thought I would win. I've come up short in every aspect of life at one time or another, yet I strive to be better so I feel like I'm a winner because of it. 

Final thought is this; fight a battle that you'll probably lose because it'll show you more about yourself than any other challenge will. I fought a battle I knew i wasn't going to win, and I lost. I lost hard, but I fought as long as i could and I made myself recognized. I put myself into it and I know I won't be forgotten

As far as grateful goes I owe my mom so much in this world. She just spend $250 on dress clothes for me. That isn't what I owe her for though. I owe her for the things you can't measure. Things like love and passion, understanding and forgiveness, knowledge and growth, and for a wicked vocabulary and love for books. I love you mom, you'll always be my favorite girl. Always. 

NP: Dear Mama- 2Pac