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I have one more driver's ed class before I can get my license. It's bittersweet in a way because it means I'll have to drive my friends around. Part of not having my license means people have top like me enough to come pick me up if they want to hang out. That sense of being wanted is slightly filled whenever you know somebody wants to hang out with you enough to come pick you up even when it's inconvenient for them. As bittersweet as that may be I'm super excited to have it and to finally be able to fully live life. The first time I can just drive myself somewhere i need to go will be a great day.

Today was a good day. The funk subsided. I even had a good seventh period...almost unheard of.

My good mood was multiplied whenever I found out we were practicing at Donaldson instead of inside. The weather was beautiful and it felt amazing to run down fly balls out in the outfield. I'm excited for this season. Very excited indeed. For those of you reading this I am begging you, please come to some games this year. Baseball games really aren't that bad. The games might seem boring but it's all about perspective! Even if the game is boring you can work on your tan. Bring a lawn chair,post up with a lemonade, and watch your favorite high school baseball players run around in tight pants!

After baseball i came home and rushed to driver's ed. I answered 18 out of 150 questions on the final and somehow ended up getting a 93% on the test...impressive right?

After driver's ed I went back to my house and watched the Pen's game with Ty and Ashley. We sat on the couch and listened to my Dad tell all kinds of stories. Stories from his time in the service and stories from high school. It's evident my Dad had an interesting upbringing. Aside from his story telling he cracked some crude jokes. When I say some I mean too many to count and when I say crude I mean jokes that earn you a first class ticket to hell. My Dad can make a joke out of anything...whether that's good or bad depends on who you are I guess. His vulgarity is rivaled only by his love of a good laugh. With all the wrong my Dad has done in his life, one thing he has always done right is made me laugh. And if you can't have a good laugh with your Dad what kind of bond is that?

My Dad and I's relationship isn't exactly "normal" or "functional." We greet each other with profanity most occasions and often times we square up like we're going to fight. (I always back off because he would still beat my ass.) My Dad has taught me a lot in my life. He's taught me what not to do through many of his actions. But more than that he's subliminally showed me exactly how to conduct myself. My Dad doesn't treat everyone well. Which some would say is a bad thing. But to me it shows how he prioritizes people in his life. If you show him you care and that you accept him for who he is, he sets aside a place for you. If you disrespect him and don't show him you can be trusted he will ridicule you. My Dad is a very judgmental man, he doesn't let anyone go without giving them his two sense, but I think that's admirable. Sure there are times where you're supposed to bite your tongue, that applies to most people, but not to my Dad. He says what he wants when he wants. It gets him in trouble, but if he didn't do it he wouldn't be him. I guess the main thing my Dad has taught me is to be yourself. Regardless if 95% of the people who meet you think you're an idiot, at least you're being you. My Dad has stayed true to himself since the day I was born, at times he was lost and acted in ways he shouldn't have. But the overwhelming amount of time in my life my Dad has been one thing, there for me.

(Really listen to the song below. great song about a man and his Dad. The end gives me chills.)

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