Good Weekend

I had a great weekend.I don't have a lot to say and I'll keep it short tonight so I can get to bed by 9. You all know that Friday I went to WPIALs and yesterday I hung out with Jordan. Today was yet another good day.

After the volleyball tournament I came home and napped and I woke up to a text from a good friend. I went to the mall with them and it was a good time. We always have a good time when we hang out, and today was no different.

I came home from the mall and ate dinner with my family. Something I hadn't done the past three nights which is a rarity. I'm very grateful for the loving family I have around me.

Other good news today held was that Amanda's 100 breast time was good enough to qualify for states. This means she'll have another chance. A chance to redeem herself for her less than desirable time she posted at WPIALs and a chance to earn some points for the team in a race for a state title. Speaking of states I hope to go up for one day or both if possible depending on what I have going on with baseball. If I get the chance I'll definitely be up there watching my friends swim once more.

Tomorrow marks the beginning of Spring sports so baseball tryouts start. I'm fairly confident I'll make the varsity team. With that being said I still realize I have to put my all into it. I'm excited to see the team that emerges this week after tryouts. Should be an interesting week to say the least.

Last regular season hockey game is Tuesday night, can't even explain how excited I am for that one. Bishop Canevin, couldn't despise an entire school more than the Bishop Canevin Crusaders. I'm ready for our boys to whoop up.

Obviously I'm tired because this post is sporadic and I can't seem to draw on one topic for more than a few sentences. That's a sign that I need to go lay down and get some sleep. However, like I've said in previous posts. The only thing I'm certain on right now in my life is uncertainty. I'm very uncertain on where I'm at with certain friends. I'm sure that I'm just over thinking it like usual. Tends to be my specialty. Mixed emotions are eating me up. Not sure what to say or how to feel. I'm willing to get hurt, but at what cost?  My mind races but i'm no closer to the finish line or an answer. Talking to Dave last night about my feelings brought me to the conclusion that the thing that kills me is not having a true chance. Whether I deserve it or not or whether or not it will work out remains to be seen. I just like to think a chance would help me.


I'm afraid of being haunted by the words I didn't utter; the words on the tip of my tongue that I swallowed instead of preached. 

So much to say, but the fear of rebuff keeps me mute.

For now these words will be burrowed in the back of my mind, saved for a sunny day where a carefree attitude will let them slip whimsically into your ear. 


NP: Words I Should Have Said- Lupe Fiasco