A Jumble Of Topics

Last night I stayed up way too late. I got to bed much later than originally planned and the strange thing is... I didn't mind it one bit. I did a lot of thinking and a lot of talking. And even more than talking and thinking, I listened. The lack of sleep took it's toll today and was evident through my glossy eyes, but I wouldn't change anything about last night.

I figured out something about myself last night. Those who know me know that I have a "restless leg" and that I'm constantly shaking. To some people I'm sure it comes off as nervousness. Maybe nervousness to the point of being dubbed a nervous wreck. I can assure you it isn't nerves. The thing I figured out was that my leg is connected to my brain. My leg shakes when I'm thinking about something. The constant stream of thoughts running through my head corresponds directly with my ever-shaking leg. That means if my leg is shaking, I'm thinking. And if I'm thinking, the chances are it's about something important. The more vigorous my leg shake the more important the topic. Some of my most violent shaking occurs when I think about those I love. So if I love you, and you're on my mind, my leg will be shaking for you.

Lastly for tonight is this. The idea of knowing your position in every situation you are a part of. Everyday we are a part of different interactions with different people in our lives. Some more serious than others, but all of these relationships we are a part of require an understanding.

An understanding of motives, an understanding of where we stand, and an understanding of what we have invested in it. We have to be able to point out what we want out of a certain relationship before we can decide how invested we are. Some relationships are merely friendships and nothing more, some are loose friendships whose only purpose is to keep us company for the time being, and other relationships are ones we expect much more out of. Only you can determine how invested you want to be, but even careful planning doesn't ensure you won't become over invested. Our minds work in strange ways and often times we put our heart places it shouldn't be, places it is susceptible to being hurt. Lastly, understanding where you stand. This can be hard to figure out sometimes, but if you have all the right motives, you'll find yourself standing right where you want. 

I know exactly where I stand in my life... The question is, do you? 


NP: Forever and Always- Parachute