Life is good. Waiting to hear from Fordham is my only noticeable worry. God, it'd be nice to get it. If not, we're visiting St. John's this weekend and I'm hoping I like it as much as I think I will.
If I do, that's where I'll be next year if I'm not at Fordham.
Like I said, I don't have much to say because life seems to be working it's way out.
There are still certain things I think about every single day. Still thoughts and feelings I can't ignore. For the most part though, I am happy. The things I think about everyday are what keep me intrigued and keep me going. They're the things that make my mind wander and keep me borderline insane.
Insanity isn't such a bad thing from what I hear. Still it'd be nice to know exactly where I'm at.
In the here and now I know who my best friends are, I know the people I truly love in my life, and I know who's worth fighting for and who isn't.
I've accepted my position in my life and in the life of those I associate with and it feels great. A part of me still asks where I am in some people's eyes.
I wonder what you all think about me. I wonder if you approve of me. If you love me. If you want to keep me close to you. If it's really how it appears. Or if it's all some act.
Questions, questions, questions, they'll drive you crazy if you let them. Ask them, but don't dwell on them. If someone wants to answer them, they will.
NP: Love- Matt White
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