future starts with f-u

Okay, not the f-u you're all thinking. My future starts with FU, Fordham University.

While the future is almost always uncertain I know that next year I'll be going to college in the Bronx. I still don't know where my dorm is or who my roommate is either, but I'm sure I'll find out in due time.

My problem is that I expect things in my future. I expect to do this or I expect this person to be there. To be honest, I expect too much.

From now on, as far as my future goes I'm not expecting anything. I'm done planning out what's going to happen in my head. The future doesn't work that way.

I can't plan out my dorm room until I'm there. I can't decide what my roommate wil be like until I meet him.

I can't plan out who I'll still be best friends with. I can't say, "Yeah we'll still be best friends next year, I promise!" Saying that sounds great but it doesn't mean shit. Only time will tell who's there for me next summer.

I can't predict what will happen when I get home five days from now. I can't tell you who I'll hang out with first and I can't tell you what we'll do. I can take an educated guess, but educated guesses are often wrong.

It all comes down to what we know and truth be told, we don't know shit.

We tend to think we know a lot, but we really don't. We tend to feel certain ways and we think that because we feel a certain way that things will turn out the way we want.

Doesn't work like that though.

Plan things based only off of what you know for certain.

Keep in mind that the times change, people change, situations change, and you can't stop the change. You can only control you.

You alone control your future and while other people play a large part in how it pans out, nothing will happen unless you put it into action.

The future is uncertain in almost every way so don't expect anyhting.

Expect only what you know you can do by yourself. Have faith in other but don't rely on them. Rely on the one person who wants you to succeed more than anyone, yourself.

Look forward to the future but don't plan it out. Let it play its way out.

Hope; let's play this out and see what there is ahead.