afterlife

My last blog brought about ideas of the afterlife. I come from a Catholic background and am quite accustomed to hearing about heaven and hell. You know the theory... if you're a good person, stay free of sin, or repent your sins you go to heaven. Other than that you go to hell or into the waiting room that is purgatory.

I will be the first to tell you I'm not afraid of growing old or of dying. There is a deep deep fear I have regarding death though...I fear one day not waking up and there being nothing left for me. I am afraid of one day just not being. I'm afraid of expiring in my sleep and never knowing what happened. I'm afraid that the world will just go black forever, that I'll never wake up or feel any emotion ever again.

I won't say I fully believe in heaven and hell or that I fully discredit them either.

Heaven and hell are things you have to truly believe deep down and I'm just not to that point yet.

Another possibility that someone mentioned to me was another life. What if after we died we didn't go to heaven or hell, just to a common ground where we led another life? Nothing as cut and dry as bad hell or good heaven. I'm not talking about reincarnation here either. I'm not saying we would be reborn in this world, I'm surmising that maybe after this life we go to a different place and start again. Not as ourself necessarily, but as someone.

I'm sure this won't make sense to diehard Christians but its just some food for thought. Trying to inspire some thought in you guys. I don't want any of you to fear death.

Death isn't the scary part, it's this living that scares the hell out of me.


NP: Miserable At Best- Mayday Parade