hints of insanity, sincerity, and love

Realization number one for tonight is this: Nothing is as it appears.
Realization number two for tonight is this: That isn't the worst thing in the world. 


Sometimes things appear worse than they are. Sometimes things actually are in your favor. Sometimes what seems to be working against you is actually working for you.

Insanity has worked it's way back into my life. I've accepted that I am insane, but the people around me have gone crazy too. I'm not sure anybody is sane anymore. I'm not sure anybody needs to be though. Maybe insanity keeps us sane because it's the only possible way to survive. Trying to be sane in a world full of insanity makes you the insane one.  


As far as sincerity goes I'm finding it's more prevalent than I previously thought. I have a lot of people around me who sincerely care about me. People who want to see me happy and want me to win in every battle I'm a part of. The one thing sincerity can do though is hold you back. It can keep you from something because someone sincerely cares about you to the point of wanting to protect you from being hurt. Be sincere, but don't interfere. Let those people you care about make their own decisions and their own mistakes.


It's not your job to hold their hand when they walk life's tightropes, rather it's your job to catch them when they misstep.


Love is all around. I can tell you that for a fact. And luckily, in many cases, it's selfless love. Loving someone else's happiness is the truest form of love. Not being jealous of their happiness, but truly loving that they are happy. It's the most unselfish type of love you can ever feel. I'm loved by a few and liked by a lot, I'm sure I'm hated by some and disliked by more, maybe I'm even feared by a couple, but I'm understood by none. And I hope that never changes. You don't need to understand something to love it.

I'm not fully understanding a lot right now, but I'm loving almost everything.. I'm loving the things I find out everyday. I'm loving admittance. I'm loving the truth. Actions have always spoke louder than mute words, and they always will.

Goodnight world. Love a little.

NP: Your Love- Nicki Minaj