I am happy. I am healthy. I am surrounded by good people. But I feel like I'm missing something. I could really use some spirituality. Church never really bothered me and while sometimes I question the religion, I do believe in a higher power. Coach Palks preaches about getting to church and I think It's time I isten. I remember when I was little I didn't want to go to church and i'd hide in the living room in the same spot every Sunday and i would cover my head with the same turtle pillow. Now I am looking to get to church. That may be my only regret about not having my drivers license. i really wish I could just wake up early on Sunday and go to 7:30 mass. it would also give me an excuse to dress up which is a bonus.
Beside my lack of spirituality right now I would say I am in a good place. School is going well, work is going as well as it can, my friends are by my side, and I'm just overall very happy. Haven't said that in a while but I am. I still worry from time to time about certain things, but I don't let them bring me down. Since I was away at Thanksgiving I've had certain sayings i tell myself I'm going to live by. I think I will share them with you all. Hey if they help one of you then this blog has done it's job.
1. Do not, under any circumstances live life with regret.
2. Tell it exactly how it is, forget hurting feelings, say what you need to say.
3. Don't forget where you came from, or who you are.
4. Hold nothing back.
5. If you want something, pursue it. Don't wait around for it to come to you.
6. Stick up for yourself, even if you have to fight for it, never settle for less than you deserve.
7. Push yourself to your physical limits. No matter how bad it hurts, keep going.
8. Let people know how you feel about them.
9. Don't be afraid to go out of your comfort zone and do something crazy, within reason of course.
10. Love endlessly.
11. (As cliche as this is) Dance. seriously wish I was good at dancing because I love it.
12. Look, act, and just be classy.
The last one is one of my favorites. I just love thinking of myself as a classy person. One day, I will own a smoking jacket, i don't plan on smoking, but I'll be damned if i don't own a smoking jacket at some point in my life. Also, as classless as I view drinking right now (not all drinking, but the high school party scene kind) I have to admit that James Bond looks pretty slick ordering a martini. I know that if at any point i order a martini, that thing is definitely going to be shaken not stirred.
Rambling. A good sign.
Goodnight world
Love Always, Clark Kent
NP: Superman- Five For Fighting
From Ms. Conforti (whose reluctance for creating her own blog is finally wearing thin)...
ReplyDeleteTommy~ Please forgive me if I’m overstepping, but you struck a chord with me and I can’t possibly ignore it. What you wrote is powerful and I can bet you’ll struggle with this issue for the rest of your life in one way or another…its just amazing to see you tackling it as a high school student.
You will stray from church for your entire life. You will go through time periods when you can’t get enough of church and what it has to offer, and other times when you can’t bear the thought of attending. Either way you can have a spiritual sense about yourself. If you’re open to it. Remember to pay attention to the small details in everyday life….listen to your heart and conscience, that’s where you’ll connect to the spirituality you feel you’re missing. It’s easy to get caught up in the “everyday-ness” of our lives, we are all so guilty of this. But if you sit still long enough you’ll find you’re not really missing it, you just aren’t always open to hearing it or experiencing it. I truly believe that sometimes it’s not about looking to connect with what greater power is out there, it’s about connecting with what’s already lying dormant inside of yourself. You’ve got a great start here…that’s obvious.