Kicking

Today I went to yet another Kohl's Kicking Camp, a showcase camp held at The University of Pittsburgh's indoor facility. I went into the camp a little sore and a little unsure. My quad began feeling a little sore after practicing a couple days ago up at the high school. The camp started out okay, I punted pretty well and then went on to kick offs. Kick offs pretty much demolished my quad. It went from being sore to just totally pulled. I felt like quitting but I figured i'd stick it out for field goals. Kicking field goals when your quad is pulled pretty much entails using no rhythm  and just trying to kill the ball... needless to say I did poorly and made 3 of 10. I wasn't upset with myself for how I did because I know I did as well as my leg would let me. What sucks is the idea that I know with a healthy leg I could have represented myself better. I blogged before about missed opportunities and I feel like i missed one today.

What's even weirder is the idea that I may never kick again. I could go to college at the D3 level and kick and punt at most colleges. But if I did that I would be settling for less than what I believed I could do. I wanted to kick at the D1AA level at an academically good school. I still think I can go to these schools, but playing football is an uncertainty.

The weird thing is I don't know if I actually like playing football. I like being a part of something bigger than just me, but I don't know if I truly enjoy it. I love the role I have on the team, the role of someone that everyone looks to at a certain point. Sure I might just punt the ball or kick an extra point but I like the fact that beside the holder and snapper it's me against the elements. It's about me being the best I can be. Maybe I do like kicking. Maybe.

All I know is that whatever decision I make about kicking in college, it won't affect the grand scheme of my life. I think I'm going to wait and see what happens. Just take life one day at a time. Hopefully this quad heals quickly and i can get into good shape for baseball because I think we can make a run at it this year.

NP: My Way- Frank Sinatra