always pushing up the hill searching for the thrill of it...

The Thrill by Wiz Khalifa, great song. Seriously though. How true are those lyrics? 

We are constantly searching for the thrills in life. We push uphill everyday towards something we want. We have setbacks but we fight for what we want. We fight harder and harder until we get what we want. Sometimes what we want we simply can't have and those are the times we can nod our heads and move on because some things in life aren't meant to be. 

But the thing for me is that I can't move on until I've exhausted all possibilities of something happening. I'm going to work for it and work for it. Maybe some people will think I'm crazy for spending the time and effort on it, but I wouldn't have started for it in the first place if I didn't think it was worth my time. 

Preaching a life with no regret and giving things your all is a tough job. I constantly question myself and ask if I'm really abiding by my own rules. 

I think I do. I think I'm a hard worker who knows that nothing in this world is going to be given to you, you have to go out there and take it. There is also a lot I don't know. I have a "thirst for knowledge" and I always want to know more. Maybe that makes me a nosy person or maybe it shows some sort of dedication. Maybe this is just me over-analyzing a simple thing in life that has no real impact and should just be skipped over, but maybe not. 

Sometimes I wonder why I wonder... Here's a poem I wrote about that very thought. Hope you like it...

I wonder...

If I'm right 

   and they're wrong

If she realizes how I feel,

   or if she even wants to realize.

How it will end,

   or if it will end.

How life can be so difficult

   when you want it to be so simple.

Why bad things happen to good people,

   and why good people let themselves be treated badly.

Why I let things go,

   when they need to be addressed.

Where I will be in four years time,

   and if I will have done my best.

Where my friends will be and how true they'll stay,

   when life takes us our separate ways.

But more than anything I wonder...

   why do I wonder?

Wrote that about three weeks ago. I think I have around 25 other poems I have written since high school started. Maybe I should go to school for writing not accounting. Seriously thinking about it. But I have kept you all for too long. I'll leave you with a quote and a song. 

Don't let the fear of the time it will take to accomplish something stand in the way of your doing it. The time will pass anyway; we might just as well put that passing time to the best possible use.
- Earl Nightingale 

NP: Don't Give Up- Eagle Eye Cherry