Some Thoughts Before Work

Just some things i have been thinking about lately. I guess you could say they've been bugging me and i am really hesitant to tell people what I actually think, so I turn to you, my trusty blog.

Recently I have been really pissed off by people's overall lack of ambition. Or if not a lack of ambition, ambition for something totally stupid. For instance, if i pissed around in high school, decided to go to some community college where i eventually dropped out of to pursue my career in the "rap game." (A really budding industry) To me that is the definition of not having a plan. On top of that, I would bounce around from part time job to part time job spending my free nights getting blitzed with anybody any age. That's just one thing i have been thinking about lately.

Another thing that has been bugging me that is actually a part of the first complaint is drinking. To put it simply i don't drink. I choose not to and i like to respect the fact that other people drink... to a point. I cannot ever totally condemn drinking. Drinking can be a social stimulant, for instance my mom becomes a much more confident, outgoing person when she drinks. Other people though, become total idiots. They brag about how much they drink, and it totally changes the person they are. That's why I avoid alcohol. I would hate to be something I am not. Alcohol also can be easily abused and with my family's addictive tendencies I don't dare tempt fate.

The final thing running through my mind is saving face. We all do it because we want to come across as the most respectable person we can, so we don't reveal the whole truth. Sometimes saving face is okay. But other times, you need to admit your wrongs because that is what it takes to keep something you love. You will lose people's respect, but you will keep what you want. To me that is something to adore in a person. Someone who is willing to tell the whole truth, no matter what it means to their reputation, as long as they keep the thing they love.

At the same time, never tell someone something they want to hear, just so they think more of you. Always speak the truth. The truth will always come out. You don't have to tell someone you don't like to party if you do like to. You can be yourself and if someone doesn't like who you are, then that's the way it is. Saving face in that case is the worst thing you can do.

The point of all this is be who you are and say what you want, just recognize that you have to live with the decisions you make and the words you speak.

"Truth stands, even if there be no public support. It is self-sustained."
-Ghandi 


NP: Fast Car- Tracy Chapman