perceptions

We're constantly told different things. Different people have different perceptions of us.

We perceive ourselves one way and usually other's perceptions are different from our own.

I've been told I live too much in the present and that in the long run I might get hurt. I've been called an ass more times than I can count. I'm considered by almost all as vulgar. I'm told by a few that I'm handsome. I've even been referred to a couple times as debonair. Most people like me. A few love me. Some probably hate me. I've been told I come across as thinking I know more than I do. I've been told I'm too mature. Most would say I have a good grasp of life. Some say that I'm hard to place; that I don't fit a stereotype. My friends tell me I try to be hipster. Others say I try being different.

Really though, I'm just trying to be me. If being me makes me different then so be it.

Now for my perceptions of myself.

I tell myself I'm chivalrous. That I'm at times rude and vulgar, but nonetheless a good person. I'm a lover who wouldn't mind a fight. I'm a bit of a sap. I'm active and rarely worried about the future. I have dreams and work towards them, I just don't fear being hurt. I'm terrible at making plans. I claim to be fun to be around and would never consider myself a bore. I think that I sometimes lack confidence mainly because I'm afraid of being seen as cocky. I'm a family man who enjoys the company of a few close friends. I'm easy to get along with and at times long winded. I perceive myself as a good listener and a good advice giver. I'm as jealous as jealous can be but I also care more than most. I hate losing and fear being inadequate. My biggest fear is being replaced.

I perceive myself as an overall good person, a person with dreams, with fears, a person full of love, a person void of hate. I call myself a thinker, a lover, a realist, a friend, and a good listener. I see myself as average in appearance but above average in thought. I'll never claim to be superior, but at times I feel I'm better than a lot of people. Obviously that makes me a hypocrite and I acknowledge myself as one of those as well.

I perceive myself as many things, you perceive me as many others, and at the end of the day who's there to say who's right and who's wrong?

Nobody.

To me I am what I say I am.

To you I am what you say I am.

Neither is right and neither is wrong.

I'm just more worried about my own opinions, not that you're not important, I just worry more about myself. Self centered? Nah. Independent.

NP: With You- Chris Brown