it's hard sometimes

Sometimes I think my words get me in trouble. I preach on this blog. I preach things that I wholeheartedly believe in. I have never said something I didn't firmly believe to be the truth or the right thing to do.

With that being said I'm an eighteen year old boy.

I'm far from perfect.

If I went my whole life and did exactly what I preached I would literally be like Jesus Christ.

I'm not though.
And I never will be.

98% of the time I do as I say and I say as I do.

98% isn't perfect though. And I realize it never will be.

That means that sadly I'll never be the "perfect" guy for any girl. Maybe I'll be the right guy, the guy a girl deserves, or the guy a girl wants, but I will never ever be perfect...

If there is one thing I know for certain other than the fact that the sun will rise tomorrow it's that I will make mistakes.

I guarantee imperfection, and you know what?

I don't want to be perfect.

I don't want to use the fact that everyone else makes mistakes as a crutch for my mistakes because I'm not everyone else. I'm different. Maybe not by much, but I'm not like most other eighteen year olds.

I've made mistakes and continue to make them everyday. Some mistakes hurt more than others. Some mistakes change people's opinions of me. But do you know what the saddest type of mistake is?

The saddest type of mistake is one where you begin to question yourself.

The most painful thing you'll ever feel in this world is the feeling you've let yourself down. Feeling like you aren't as good a person as you thought you were. That's the toughest pain a person can feel.

From time to time I ask myself if I'm as good a person as I think I am.

Funny thing is I rarely answer that question.

I don't answer because at the end of the day I'm only as good as I perceive myself to be.

I'm only as good as my actions not my words.

I'm only 18.

I'm not perfect.

I am sorry though.

Sorry that from time to time I'm put on a pedestal. Sorry that I bring this upon myself.

I'm sorry that I can't practice exactly what I preach. All I can do is strive to be that top 98%.

Nobody can be right all the time, and in fact very few are right the majority of the time.

I'm going to keep practicing what I preach and you all just have to trust me that I won't let you down.

I thrive on that trust so please believe in me.

Give me that chance to be the imperfectly perfect person in your life.

"You say it's too late to make it, but is it too late to try?"

NP: Payphone- Maroon 5