late nights keep me young

I've been getting to bed early in the morning the past couple nights. I look for things like coming home at two in the morning to keep me young. It keeps me alive.

I watched a movie the other day where there was a quote that I really liked. It said, "I might hate you more, but I'll never love you less."

That's a great quote because you can hate a person, but love them. In some cases you can hate almost everything about a person but still love them. Obviously these aren't the best types of relationships, but if you find yourself in one don't worry about it. Don't feel like you're compromising yourself if you continue loving someone you really should hate.

The heart and mind are two distinctly different operating systems. One tells you to do what's safe and the other tells you to do what makes you happy. Getting the two to agree harmoniously is nearly impossible. In almost all aspects of life your head and your heart will clash. I know mine do. In both big things and small.

I wish that what felt the best was truly the healthiest for us. Think about it. All the good tasting foods are unhealthy. All the healthy foods aren't any fun. Love is like that too sometimes. You find yourself liking something that isn't good for you. Sometimes you can't decide what you want and you end up stuck between different alternatives. Some seem healthy but the others seem more enjoyable. Usually you don't know what was best for you until it's gone.

Maybe the safest way to play it is to try out everything you can. Spread your love around and see where it sticks. See where your time and effort is returned and stick with that person. Wasting your love on someone undeserving is a sad, sad thing to do. However, if you truly think they're worth it, then the love isn't wasted. You can't waste love if you truly love something. Sure you might not be helping yourself out, but there is something to be said about persistence. About believing.

If you love someone dare to send that text out of the blue saying so. Don't fear the rejection, hope for that one response. 

Don't let the fear of love not being returned keep you from loving. 

NP: No Interruption- Hoodie Allen