75th Blog

Well today was just that kind of day. I had driver's ed and baseball and school was not great. I missed conditioning at baseball which I was looking forward to. After a day like today I wanted to push my body to it's limits. I didn't get that chance sadly.

1000 Splendid Suns will go down as the book I hate the most. Not only because Hosseini has totally screwed with my emotions that were barely in the book to begin with, but for other reasons as well.

Yesterday's blog was about fighting for what you wanted and never giving up and sadly today's is nothing like that. Today's is something much more humbling. Accepting defeat.

Sometimes life just isn't fair. And even after you've laid it all on the line, you lose. You come up a bit short. Sometimes your best is good enough, but the circumstances just aren't right. I've realized that the "hard way." The thing is I am usually such a sore loser, but with age I've realized that when you've done your best you can't be upset with defeat. If I go out and put myself out there, be the most passionate I can be, and love what I'm chasing then losing doesn't matter. I've chased, and I've fought, and I've stumbled many a time. But I have never been as amazed as I am right now. When you do everything right , you naturally expect to get what you want, but you aren't guaranteed anything in life. You aren't granted anything. You need to take every day as it comes, embrace it for what it is. What it is is a chance. A chance for self betterment.

You always hear about "The agony of defeat" but why does it have to be agony? Sure losing sucks. Nobody likes losing, but agony is a bit exaggerated. You might cry after you lose, hell I know I have, and that's okay. If it didn't hurt than it didn't mean enough to you and you shouldn't have been fighting for it in the first place.

One thing I have really picked up on in my 17 years of life its the power of love. Love is seriously the greatest thing in the world. Whether it's love for a family member, a friend, or a significant other; love is truly the most powerful emotion. Whether the love has been there for a decade or for a couple weeks love is love. Don't fear it, thrive on it. Tell the people that you love, "I love you." You're never too old or too cool for that. Never. And don't assume they know you do. Tell them. Tell them as often as you can. Go out of your way to tell them. But never say you love someone unless you really, truly do. Falsifying love is the worst crime you can commit.

Final thought for the night I promise. Never be afraid to act on a whim. Never be afraid to take a chance on something. If the life you know becomes humdrum or you feel like you're waiting on something or someone it's time to make a change. Go out of your comfort zone and risk it all. You might get burned, but chances are if you put your trust in someone who cares about you. You'll be alright. You might even be surprised as to what you find.

I love you guys. All of you. I want you to know that. Whether you're 17 years old reading this or 50 years old, I love you.

NP: How to Save a Life- The Fray