High School Sports Night

I had a good good day today. School was quick and easy and baseball got cancelled so I got to go watch all my friends events. I also got in a good lift with t will.

First was the swim meet. I got to watch my boy goga tear up. Ashley and Amanda did great too, which is expected. Graz was a sellout and left me hanging. Just playing Graz. But seriously the meet was fun. I like swimming because it's such a team thing, but it comes down to your best vs someone else's best. That's a cool concept to me. (I also promised a blog shout out to a girl on the swim team who I do not know. So here's to you swim girl who was standing by Amanda and Ashley.)

From the meet I went and watched the girls basketball game for a little while. Let's just say that didn't last long...just kidding I left because I was going to the hockey game.

Morgan and Anna picked me up and took me. Which was very nice of them. Anna bought me a sundae from McDonalds which was very nice of her. Thanks Anna and Morgan again. I doubt either of you will read this but seriously thank you guys. The game was good, a little sloppy but we pulled out a win.

I floated around most of the night talking to anyone who would listen, and listening to anyone who would talk.

After the game I waited for Chris with Morgan and Anna and I got to see Viv for the first time in what feels like years. I love Viv. She's a truly good person. A genuinely caring lady. And a hell of a seamstress.

If Morg and Anna weren't my ride home I probably would've been in the first fight of my life. I saw, for the first time, a person I have no respect for. A scummy scummy kid who I would have been glad to punch in the face a couple times. Luckily Morg kept me from doing anything because I would have really made a scene, especially in front of Dr. D and all the parents like Viv.

I guess it wasn't the time or place. And maybe the time and place will never come and he will go free, not paying for what he did. But maybe the best revenge is forgiveness? Maybe..(I think a punch in the mouth would serve him better, but what do I know.)

The very sight of him made me so so angry. At one point both my hands were curled into fists and I was shaking from pure adrenaline. I felt out of control, but a part of me said he wasn't worth it. That he wasn't worth my time. It also helped that I had two girls telling me not to do it.

The car ride home was relaxing. I talked to Morg and Anna about life and how I've been. It was cool that they just asked me to vent, so I did. I feel better now, thanks once again guys.

That was my night in a nutshell, but my life recently has been satisfying. I've been very content. I've also been very out there. I'm saying and doing what I want and letting people decide if they want me in their life or not.

I was recently told that this blog has brought at least two people to tears. One of those people was a grown woman. I guess I must be doing something right.

While blogging is a huge part of my life now I'd still love to talk to people face to face. If you read this blog, and you like what I have to say. Don't hesitate to talk to me in person. I'll talk to you, whoever you are. About life, love, happiness, or anything you want. I'm not claiming to be a master of any of those things, but I obviously have a stance on them and i'd love to hear yours as well.

Back to the topic of this blog making someone cry. If you cry reading the blog, then you truly get it. You understand that this is me, spilled out for the world to read. You understand that this blog is about more than what I did for the day and is about more than my life lessons.

This blog is me growing as a person.

This blog keeps me sane.

If this blog keeps you sane too, please keep reading. I promise to never leave you hanging.

Well my mother has just texted me and said, "its bed time blog boy" so I guess it's bed time. Mother knows best. Always remember that.

NP: Desire- Ryan Adams