Today, I left home with two of my best friends, we drove to Akron, and I came home with only one of those best friends.
Ash, Amanda, and I went to move Ash in today.
It was a long process and I can say that moving a girl into her dorm room is one of the most stressful things I've ever been a part of. I'm glad I did though.
The whole day I felt very complacent. Being complacent was the only thing that was able to keep me from realizing the situation that is unfolding. Life has changed.
I sit at home this very instant and the West Allegheny district feels dead to me. Almost all my friends have moved in to their dorms. Amanda is the last to leave and she goes tomorrow morning.
Like I said, life is different now. I won't see Ash for several months. When I do see her again it will be for a day or so. Then I won't see her for another month or so and even when I see her it will only be for a couple weeks. Then more months before summer comes along. Once summer is here we can pretend again that life is back to normal, but sadly after three months we leave again.
After four years of that we'll have graduated. I can't tell you what degrees we will graduate with, I can't tell you what our GPAs will have been, I can't tell you what internships we will have under our belts, and I can't tell you where our jobs will have us headed. I can tell you that Ash will still be my best friend though.
I love her to death and this past year she has become my best friend in the world. The funny thing is...I can't tell you how we became friends. No matter how hard I try to trace the roots, our friendship seems to have popped up out of nowhere. I can tell you exact dates of certain events, but I cannot tell you how it started.
It's a friendship that has matured over these past 10 months into something special. What it is exactly, I can't tell you. I do know that I love her. I love her like I love all my friends, but I don't love all my friends like I love her. That should explain it to you. I fell in love with my best friend. I left my best friend and the girl I love in Akron.
I'm scared, I'm worried, and I feel lost. I go to New York City in 4 days and this is no time to feel any of those emotions but I just can't help myself.
I have the best friend a kid could ask for. She's two hours away right now and in a few days she will be eight hours away. You can't measure the distance between two people in hours, minutes, or seconds though. You can only measure it in how you feel. You can be as close or as far as you want. It's up to you. Distance is only a barrier between two physical beings. I ask myself... Where's my mind? Where's my heart? Answer that and you know how far away you truly are. I'm not too far away from my best friend right now.
NP: Home- Phillip Phillips
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