scared

I'm a little bit scared. A little bit scared of a lot of different things.

Tomorrow is the day of reckoning.

Okay, maybe it's just my freshman move in day, but it's a serious day for me.

My fears include failing out, not fitting in, becoming overwhelmingly homesick, and a general fear of getting hurt in the city.

I have another fear that I won't mention specifically.

It's scary thinking you could take another person's life, isn't it?

We have the resources, but do we actually have the capability?

Some people have that instinct. Some people have something about them that allows them to take a person's life.

I don't think I would know if I could or not until the situation to do so presented itself. I think in some instances I could. For family or a person I love, I'd do anything. In self defense, I'd do anything.

If a person came  at me with the intentions of harming me or taking my life all reason flies out the window. Staying alive comes first.

It's crazy thinking about stuff like that.

My mind is all over the place right now.

Another fear some people have is of loving. There are some people afraid of falling in love. For me it isn't a fear of falling in love, it's a fear of falling out.

Having fears doesn't make you weak, though.

You're far stronger if you acknowledge your fears than if you deny them. 

"Our greatest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our greatest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure." -Marianne Williamson

She's right you know. It's not inadequacy I fear, instead I fear the power I have to not feel inadequate. A fear of not using the power bestowed upon me.

NP: Over My Dead Body- Drake