I'm Here

This week is off to a better start. Hanging with John and Joe Lach on Friday was nice. It made me realize something though. I don't think I'm made to live in the city. I think I'm made to love the city, but I couldn't live here. The crowded apartments and public transportation. That just isn't for me.

I'm in love with New York, I really am, but I can't live here.

I'm a suburban PA kid at heart. I'm a hop in the Subaru and drive somewhere kid, not a catch the subway kind of kid.

I could handle life in Oakland or Shadyside because I like having a house. Apartments aren't for me. Granted I won't always be able to afford a house, but a penthouse apartment just doesn't appeal to me the same way a house like my one in Oakdale does. A doorman? I'd rather just have a dog that watches my house.

I'm not sure if it's the fast pace that I don't like or the bajillions of people. The impersonal feel of such a large city. I like having real neighbors. Maybe this is all an overreaction, but I honestly could never see myself settling down and having a family in New York City. I just couldn't.

Feeling a bit indifferent towards most things right now. I'm beyond excited to come home and see my two best friends this weekend though. I haven't seen Ty in nearly two months and Ash in nearly two weeks. I'm 100% sure that Ty and I will pick right back up where we left off in summer. The kid is like my brother. I look up to him and I don't think he even knows it.

He's chasing his dream. I'm not sure I can say the same about myself. I'm in the business school. I want to write. See the problem?

I'll find my way. One way or another I will. I'm gonna end up where I need to end up. That's guaranteed.

NP: Over- Drake