Over With

Still waiting to hear back...

But anyway, I'm finally done with my midterms which is quite the relief. Now I can focus on staying caught up and even getting ahead in my classes. My first big week of college exams was nothing short of stressful and painful. I survived though, even if just barely.

I'm not really sure what to talk about on here anymore.

I think that's a sign that I'm not thinking about things as much as I used to. Is that a good thing or a bad thing? Sometimes I liked over thinking things. I liked having my mind whirling with thoughts of what could be and what should be. I still think about what will be and what might be, but on a lesser scale. I have a lot of good in my life. I have a lot of questionable parts too. The main conflict I'm faced with is the decision of what is truly good and what isn't. There are desires and dreams I have that I question as being wholly good. The constant struggle I find myself in is one of searching for what makes me truly happy.

I guess I'm still a dreamer and a thinker. More than either of those I am an explorer. I am but one kid in a huge city, searching for the smallest things that make him happy. Sounds like a trip fit for Columbus or Magellan.

I'm waiting, I'm dreaming, I'm loving, but am I living?

I hope so because these dreams are too good to let go of.

NP: Morning Has Broken- Cat Stevens