I just feel like sometimes we're so caught up in growing up that we forget how to be young. We ignore those feelings we used to get in our younger years. We dismiss them as yesterday's feelings, neglect them because we're "grown up now and that kind of stuff isn't realistic." I'm beginning to think that thinking that way is totally backwards. Being young isn't a bad thing, and it isn't a sin to dream of something that might not happen. Sometimes we all need to regress back to those elementary school or middle school days.
You know, days when kickball at lunch was a guarantee? Days where a trip to the library wasn't to study for an exam but to check out a book you actually wanted to read. The days where you'd get off the school and run to your house, excited to see what mom was making for dinner.
Those were less stressful days. I won't call them better days because my days here are incredible and life-changing, but I'll be damned if adding and subtracting fractions doesn't sound more enticing than the time value of money.
I'm not sure what sparked this exactly. Maybe I've been feeling some sort of way that I haven't felt in a while. I'm not totally sure.
All I know is that it's okay to feel something you haven't felt in a long time. Whether it's a sense of understanding, or a feeling of pure ecstasy, or just feeling at peace with yourself and where you're at. Allow yourself to feel everything you feel. Don't push something away because it isn't congruent with how you think you should feel. That'll only add stress to your life.
So whether it's staying up later than you should, crushing on that older girl, or laughing at an immature joke, let yourself go.
Cut yourself some slack because we're all kids somewhere deep down.
You know, days when kickball at lunch was a guarantee? Days where a trip to the library wasn't to study for an exam but to check out a book you actually wanted to read. The days where you'd get off the school and run to your house, excited to see what mom was making for dinner.
Those were less stressful days. I won't call them better days because my days here are incredible and life-changing, but I'll be damned if adding and subtracting fractions doesn't sound more enticing than the time value of money.
I'm not sure what sparked this exactly. Maybe I've been feeling some sort of way that I haven't felt in a while. I'm not totally sure.
All I know is that it's okay to feel something you haven't felt in a long time. Whether it's a sense of understanding, or a feeling of pure ecstasy, or just feeling at peace with yourself and where you're at. Allow yourself to feel everything you feel. Don't push something away because it isn't congruent with how you think you should feel. That'll only add stress to your life.
So whether it's staying up later than you should, crushing on that older girl, or laughing at an immature joke, let yourself go.
Cut yourself some slack because we're all kids somewhere deep down.
Run home from class, jump in every puddle, eat a snack before bed, dream of what you really want to be, tell your mom and dad you love them, go to sleep, wake up, and realize that for the most part you're just a taller version of your five year old self.
Just do what it takes to smile.
NP: The World At Large- Modest Mouse
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