pain

I'm sitting in Drugs and Behavior listening to our TA rant about pain and how it is experienced. She's talking about how pain is subjective.

So that means each person experiences pain differently than everyone else.

I guess that's right.

I feel like most physical pain is pretty much the same, though. We all are made up of these different neurons and  pathways that carry pain signals to and from the spinal cord.

When I scrape my knee isn't it pretty much the same as when you scrape yours? Isn't the pain there regardless of how much we complain?

Maybe I'm wrong. I probably am. I'm obviously not paying much attention to what she's saying.

I'm just looking for an escape. This week of classes is going to be rough. Not due to an abundance of exams, rather because my motivation and focus are lost somewhere in limbo.

In other news I had a good weekend in Akron with Ethan, Jared, and Straka. I had a ton of laughs and shared some unforgettable times with some of my best friends.

Driving home with Straka we talked a lot about college and life in general. We talked about girls, about grades, and about stupid tolls.

We both agree that college is a sort of "3 steps forward, 2 steps back" type of thing. We take three steps forward as far as "useful" knowledge, but we take 2 MAJOR steps backward in terms of financial setbacks.

We talked about how things change from high school to college and how for many of us, college doesn't meet expectations because our senior year was so damn close to perfect.

College isn't bad. But I think that finding the right fit is more difficult than some people think. I, myself, have found this to be especially true. I'm happy here, but I feel like it isn't where I was meant to end up. It just seems like there is more to be had.

I'm sure I'll figure it all out in time. I'm not too worried about it...

A little less than a month and a half until summer and God only knows what summer has in store for me. Hopefully it is something unpredictable and beautiful.

I'm ready for some unpredictability and beauty.

Holy shit, unpredictability is a word. Awesome.

NP: Skinny Love- Bon Iver