long, windy, dark roads

This past evening I went on a long ride with two of my best friends. We sat and sang and listened to some music as we braved the night. As we drove my mind whirled about where I'm at, where I've been, and where I'm going.

One friend kept explaining that I seemed a bit down and out of it. I'm not really sure what the problem is or if there even is a problem. More than likely the problem lies within.

I'm doing well all things considered and this break is much needed.

One thing that ran through my head while driving around is that certain drives are ones you'd wish would never end and others are ones you wish had never started. Oftentimes the drive is to and from the same place, but the difference between longing for it to end and wishing it never would deals with tension. There was no tension in the van tonight. There wasn't a single feeling of discomfort.

After we three returned I got in my car and decided I wasn't ready for my night to end just yet.

As I pulled out of my neighborhood I made a turn I've made hundreds of times before. I travelled down a road I know by heart by now. I drove that road because there are certain roads in your lifetime that are meant to be travelled under the cover of dark.

You'll find a road that you travel exclusively under one set of circumstances.

While the road can be travelled during the day you are more accustomed to it in the wee hours of morning. You're used to speeding down the road feeling either a sense of happiness or a yearning for certainty. Rarely do you take that road and feel anything besides those two emotions.

Something as seemingly meaningless as a road holds such strong ties because at the end of the road, or somewhere along it, lies a memory. Memories cling to the things that surround it, to the things that make the memory exactly what it is.

Eventually the road will lose its allure, as any old road does, and when you've come to terms with it you wonder how one road could have ever meant so much.

It isn't the road that changes, but what the road stands for.

NP: Fix You- Coldplay