College Life

So this past weekend I got to play competitive baseball for the first time in 18 months. It felt so good to lace up my cleats, put on my jersey, and play for something. I guess that's what you don't get in intramurals. You play and it's competitive, but you aren't playing for something greater than yourself. Sure you have a team but there's no real legacy to be left. 

(Not that I'm claiming a club baseball legacy is much of a legacy.)

But still, there's the possibility. 

Aside from PCB I'm also now in PSP. (That's Phi Sigma Pi)

It's not a real frat in the sense of having to drink myself into oblivion to get in. This fraternity required I had above a 3.0. So far it's been a great way to meet new people.

I guess I'm really settling into this college life. I'm getting involved and I'm worrying about things less and less. 

And yet I still feel this void. I can't quite place where the void is, but late at night I feel it. When it's just me and my thoughts I think about it. Am I ambitious and want more or am I simply discontent? Do I have any reason to be discontent? 

The one thing about me thinking more is it gives me some stuff to write about. Some poems and such have come out of it and I'll share those with you later. 

For now I'm going to put on some music and drift off. This void I'm feeling can't bother me in my sleep.