My job is a job. I spend round about 6.5 hours on my feet walking around listening to music. The pros of the job include: working outside and building a tan, $10/hr, working 3 days a week, being done by 3:30 the days I do work. The cons include: waking up 6:30 to go to work, the busy work, the fact that for 8 hours I say less than 20 words. Being left alone to my thoughts starts to take a toll after awhile. It gives me too much time to think about things other than work.
Things like friends, love, school and my future. So far this summer hasn't really played out the way I thought it would. I can't complain though because more of my time is spent laughing than crying, more time smiling than frowning, and more time surrounded with people I love than time alone. So if I'm laughing, smiling, and loving it seems like things can't be going that poorly. And truth be told they aren't. I love my life. I love my friends and family. And most importantly I love my future.
I love my friends and family because they are the constants. They're always there and unchanging. I love the future because regardless of what anyone says it's bright. To think anything less would be selling myself short and being pessimistic about something I completely control.
The summer is young and I've already made my fair share of mistakes, but truth be told I can't wait to make some more. You see I view it the way Oscar Wilde did when he said, "Experience is the name everyone gives to their mistakes." The same things you might be labeling as "experience" I'm busy acknowledging as mistakes.
It's June 12th and the reality of this summer is becoming more evident as time goes on. The next 2 months and 2 weeks will be the last normal summer days with all my friends here. Next summer Amanda will be in Charlottesville, Ashley in Akron, Ty wherever his legs take him, Dave possibly in London, and realistically it looks like it'll be Jared, Ethan, and I holding down Oakdale. It would be foolish and selfish to wish for another summer with us all here. Realistically we're all growing up and headed our own directions. If I had the chance to take an internship somewhere cool next summer I wouldn't hesitate. NYC would be incredible.
I don't have any real regrets from this summer. Sure there are things happening that I thought wouldn't and some things not happening that I hoped would, but such is life. I can't focus on what has happened and what hasn't though. Gotta keep my eyes forward to what still can happen.
I can't wait for this coming school year.
And at the same time I don't want this summer to end.
That's all for now.
NP: Jump Right In- Zac Brown Band
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