In 6 hours my best friend in the world is going to start his physical fitness test at Xavier. This is for him.
Ty,
I know you're ready for this test. This isn't one of Murdoch's stats tests that you needed me for. You only need you. You've worked all summer for this and even before that you busted your ass to even have this chance. Remember I was there with you for a lot of it, but you put in more time than that and you deserve this. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise. Go out there and own it. Make your not D1 athlete friend proud. Show those fuckers western PA has some talent. Represent for the little guys. Love and miss you dude.
-Tommy
Sunday, August 5, 2012
Pitch Black Run
I went on a late night run tonight and like always did some thinking.
It's easy to feel alone in such a big world. But when you get into a comfortable place, like a run in the pitch black, you realize the only person you need is yourself. My run showed me how beautiful independence is. I would set a goal for my self, set a stopwatch, and I would go and get it. While running I saw Brandon and I was able to stop and talk to him for a little while. Little moments where you have a good talk with someone definitely makes life a little bit sweeter. You can make it through life on your own, but having a few close companions makes it a lot better.
Life is beautiful when you key in on those little things. Little things like the sun setting at the high school. Run a lap, then walk a lap and reminisce. I could go on for hours with memories from that field. I spent a majority of my time on that turf.
It reminds me of how much I'll miss this place I call home. I don't necessarily hope this place misses me, rather I hope it remembers me.
I'm gonna be remembered. One way or another.
NP: The World's Greatest- R. Kelly
Book Idea
I want to write a book and I think I've stumbled across a topic that interests me and would prove to be a good read. Infinities.
The majority of the book will focus on the hundreds or thousands of things that play into a single, horrific tragedy happening. It will detail the major "what ifs" associated with the tragedy as well as how the tragedy affected everyone around it. The end will focus on how infinities don't just cause tragedy, they cause extreme happiness. Set in a high school setting with events near and dear to many of our hearts I think I might just be able to capture your attention.
The goal of this book is to make you think, to make you accept unknowns, and to make you wonder.
From what I hear this process is long and tedious, but I want to do it. I have to do it.
The majority of the book will focus on the hundreds or thousands of things that play into a single, horrific tragedy happening. It will detail the major "what ifs" associated with the tragedy as well as how the tragedy affected everyone around it. The end will focus on how infinities don't just cause tragedy, they cause extreme happiness. Set in a high school setting with events near and dear to many of our hearts I think I might just be able to capture your attention.
The goal of this book is to make you think, to make you accept unknowns, and to make you wonder.
From what I hear this process is long and tedious, but I want to do it. I have to do it.
Saturday, August 4, 2012
for now
It finally hit me last night. The reality of this whole growing up thing, that is. I said my first goodbye and the worst part is that it started with my best friend. I guess we kind of just put it in the back of our mind if we can. We just ignore the fact that it's happening and then when it does happen we feel blindsided.
Yesterday I hung out with all of my best friends for the last time in what will surely be a couple months. It was fantastic and it was devastating. No matter how ready you say you are for college you'll hate those goodbyes. They aren't even goodbyes really. They're just see you laters, sadly in this case, later will be longer than usual.
Before we said our final goodbyes to Ty we stood outside my front door for a solid 20 minutes. We all kept bringing up random things to talk about, trying to delay the inevitable. The thing is, it had to happen. We had to say goodbye. We had to let Ty go and let him, in at least some sense, move on. He knows exactly where to find all of us and he knows that if he doesn't find us that we'll come find him.
True friends are like that. You always know where to find them. They're never absent when you go looking and if you don't find them it's only because they're already out looking for you.
This isn't a goodbye, it's a see you later, you son of a bitch.
NP: Landslide- Fleetwood Mac
Yesterday I hung out with all of my best friends for the last time in what will surely be a couple months. It was fantastic and it was devastating. No matter how ready you say you are for college you'll hate those goodbyes. They aren't even goodbyes really. They're just see you laters, sadly in this case, later will be longer than usual.
Before we said our final goodbyes to Ty we stood outside my front door for a solid 20 minutes. We all kept bringing up random things to talk about, trying to delay the inevitable. The thing is, it had to happen. We had to say goodbye. We had to let Ty go and let him, in at least some sense, move on. He knows exactly where to find all of us and he knows that if he doesn't find us that we'll come find him.
True friends are like that. You always know where to find them. They're never absent when you go looking and if you don't find them it's only because they're already out looking for you.
This isn't a goodbye, it's a see you later, you son of a bitch.
NP: Landslide- Fleetwood Mac
Wednesday, August 1, 2012
what does it take?
What does it take to prove something to a nonbeliever? How many times do you have to hear something and be showed something before you accept it as truth? Why are we so stubborn?
Our stubbornness has to stem from the thought that we know more than we do. We're cocky in that sense. We think we know all the answers, but if we knew all the answers there'd be no need for questions.
I guess that the easiest thing to say about believing something is that when there is proof, you have to believe it. If someone says they love you and they prove it, believe them. If someone has showed you and told you that you aren't enough for them, don't think you will be. If someone says they won't forget about you, them rest assured knowing you cross their mind from time to time.
All I know is that I have a tough time
believing it when someone tells me I'm a great guy, I'm different, or that I'm the best. Many a times I feel I'm on the verge of greatness, like I'm bordering profound. I just don't know if I'm truly coming up short or if the judges opinions are skewed.
I'm enough, I'm different, and you'd be hard pressed to find someone quite like me. That's a promise.
Don't believe me?
Wait til I'm gone...then you'll understand.
NP: Drunk- Ed Sheeran
Our stubbornness has to stem from the thought that we know more than we do. We're cocky in that sense. We think we know all the answers, but if we knew all the answers there'd be no need for questions.
I guess that the easiest thing to say about believing something is that when there is proof, you have to believe it. If someone says they love you and they prove it, believe them. If someone has showed you and told you that you aren't enough for them, don't think you will be. If someone says they won't forget about you, them rest assured knowing you cross their mind from time to time.
All I know is that I have a tough time
believing it when someone tells me I'm a great guy, I'm different, or that I'm the best. Many a times I feel I'm on the verge of greatness, like I'm bordering profound. I just don't know if I'm truly coming up short or if the judges opinions are skewed.
I'm enough, I'm different, and you'd be hard pressed to find someone quite like me. That's a promise.
Don't believe me?
Wait til I'm gone...then you'll understand.
NP: Drunk- Ed Sheeran
Never Be The Same
Have you ever had the feeling that things will never be the same?
With college move in day quickly approaching I have to come to terms that life won't ever be the same as it is now. Faces and scenery will surely change. Friends will be harder to keep in touch with. Family will be present, but not as much as I'm accustomed to. Life is going to be strange for a while.
While next year so much will change I know a few things that will always be there. There's a peach brick house on the last cul-de-sac in Stonebridge that will always be my house. There's a high school field where I feel more comfortable than anywhere else in the world. There's a room inside that peach brick house where I can let it all out. When that isn't enough there is a cemetery just a couple minutes away where I can talk to my Nan. Your home will always be your home.
In a year's time will I be coming home at six in the morning like I occasionally do now? I can't tell you that. I can't tell you if I'll be at home next summer. I can't tell you a lot.
I can tell you that I'm confident in where I'm coming from, I'm confident in where I'm going, and I'm confident in everything in between.
With college move in day quickly approaching I have to come to terms that life won't ever be the same as it is now. Faces and scenery will surely change. Friends will be harder to keep in touch with. Family will be present, but not as much as I'm accustomed to. Life is going to be strange for a while.
While next year so much will change I know a few things that will always be there. There's a peach brick house on the last cul-de-sac in Stonebridge that will always be my house. There's a high school field where I feel more comfortable than anywhere else in the world. There's a room inside that peach brick house where I can let it all out. When that isn't enough there is a cemetery just a couple minutes away where I can talk to my Nan. Your home will always be your home.
In a year's time will I be coming home at six in the morning like I occasionally do now? I can't tell you that. I can't tell you if I'll be at home next summer. I can't tell you a lot.
I can tell you that I'm confident in where I'm coming from, I'm confident in where I'm going, and I'm confident in everything in between.
Like Crazy
I watched a movie last night called Like Crazy. It was a love story about a boy from Los Angeles and a girl from London. The two fall in love while in school in LA and soon Anna has to return to London because her visa has expired. The main theme of the movie had to be something about shitty timing. These two people fell madly in love right before they had to go their separate ways. The rest of the movie is the two of them desperately attempting to make it work. Jacob travels to London to see her and Anna travels to America to see him. while they are separated each of them becomes involved with other people, but as the movie ends Jacob and Anna are together.
I found the movie to be sort of sad really. It showed how quickly things change. A love that was once untouchable was marred by new loves, by the distance between them, and by changing feelings. The movie revealed a vicious cycle of love and hurt. Leave and come back to where you started.
I guess it was just bad timing. Still sad as hell though.
NP: The A Team- Ed Sheeran
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