We're constantly told different things. Different people have different perceptions of us.
We perceive ourselves one way and usually other's perceptions are different from our own.
I've been told I live too much in the present and that in the long run I might get hurt. I've been called an ass more times than I can count. I'm considered by almost all as vulgar. I'm told by a few that I'm handsome. I've even been referred to a couple times as debonair. Most people like me. A few love me. Some probably hate me. I've been told I come across as thinking I know more than I do. I've been told I'm too mature. Most would say I have a good grasp of life. Some say that I'm hard to place; that I don't fit a stereotype. My friends tell me I try to be hipster. Others say I try being different.
Really though, I'm just trying to be me. If being me makes me different then so be it.
Now for my perceptions of myself.
I tell myself I'm chivalrous. That I'm at times rude and vulgar, but nonetheless a good person. I'm a lover who wouldn't mind a fight. I'm a bit of a sap. I'm active and rarely worried about the future. I have dreams and work towards them, I just don't fear being hurt. I'm terrible at making plans. I claim to be fun to be around and would never consider myself a bore. I think that I sometimes lack confidence mainly because I'm afraid of being seen as cocky. I'm a family man who enjoys the company of a few close friends. I'm easy to get along with and at times long winded. I perceive myself as a good listener and a good advice giver. I'm as jealous as jealous can be but I also care more than most. I hate losing and fear being inadequate. My biggest fear is being replaced.
I perceive myself as an overall good person, a person with dreams, with fears, a person full of love, a person void of hate. I call myself a thinker, a lover, a realist, a friend, and a good listener. I see myself as average in appearance but above average in thought. I'll never claim to be superior, but at times I feel I'm better than a lot of people. Obviously that makes me a hypocrite and I acknowledge myself as one of those as well.
I perceive myself as many things, you perceive me as many others, and at the end of the day who's there to say who's right and who's wrong?
Nobody.
To me I am what I say I am.
To you I am what you say I am.
Neither is right and neither is wrong.
I'm just more worried about my own opinions, not that you're not important, I just worry more about myself. Self centered? Nah. Independent.
NP: With You- Chris Brown
Thursday, June 7, 2012
Wednesday, June 6, 2012
This Might Sound Silly
Now like the title said this might sound silly, but ever since Google shut down my Adsense account I've been looking to make money off the blog. Several friends of mine mentioned that they would love Daily Doze t-shirts. I just want to know if anyone would be interested at all. If so let me know on here, on Twitter, on Facebook, or you can text me. I could buy t-shirts, mesh pinny type tank tops, long sleeve t-shirts, sweatshirts, or hoodies. Please let me know if any of you would be interested. I thought it'd be a cool way to get the blog's name out there and a nice way to make some money before college.
Thanks in advance for your feedback.
This is a link to what the t-shirts could look like...there are a lot of other colors though so keep an open mind.
http://www.customink.com/designs/dailydozed/wgz0-000q-43t8/hotlink?pc=HL-46120&cm_mmc=hotlink-_-2-_-Body_img-_-designfront
Thanks in advance for your feedback.
This is a link to what the t-shirts could look like...there are a lot of other colors though so keep an open mind.
http://www.customink.com/designs/dailydozed/wgz0-000q-43t8/hotlink?pc=HL-46120&cm_mmc=hotlink-_-2-_-Body_img-_-designfront
Clarification
I'd like to clarify my last post. I'm not sure I said exactly what I meant. What I meant is this...
As a whole humans are usually attracted to things that aren't good for them. (This explains things like obesity and girls always chasing after the "bad boys.") Our existence is based on doing what makes us happy and in the Gotye song, "Somebody That I Used To Know" it is said best. "You can be addicted to a certain kind of sadness." A lot of humans, when they can't find true happiness, resort to sheer sadness. It doesn't make much sense, but I think as long as we are alive we will have an urge to chase things that aren't good for us. Like other urges we should try and control these. My good friend Dave said that he needed to change what he was looking for. It seems to have worked wonders for him because he is happier than ever.
I'm not necessarily saying you need to change what you're looking for, maybe you've already found it. Maybe it has sat right next to you, but you just haven't realized it yet. Maybe happiness isn't that far away. Maybe happiness keeps you up til 3 a.m., but maybe not. Maybe happiness is what wakes you up at 5. Maybe happiness isn't about what's good for you and what's bad for you; maybe it isn't that complex. Maybe happiness is a simple smile :$
Happiness is all around.
Find it, and hold on to it. Don't waste it and don't abuse it.
Love what makes you happy and be happy for what you love.
As a whole humans are usually attracted to things that aren't good for them. (This explains things like obesity and girls always chasing after the "bad boys.") Our existence is based on doing what makes us happy and in the Gotye song, "Somebody That I Used To Know" it is said best. "You can be addicted to a certain kind of sadness." A lot of humans, when they can't find true happiness, resort to sheer sadness. It doesn't make much sense, but I think as long as we are alive we will have an urge to chase things that aren't good for us. Like other urges we should try and control these. My good friend Dave said that he needed to change what he was looking for. It seems to have worked wonders for him because he is happier than ever.
I'm not necessarily saying you need to change what you're looking for, maybe you've already found it. Maybe it has sat right next to you, but you just haven't realized it yet. Maybe happiness isn't that far away. Maybe happiness keeps you up til 3 a.m., but maybe not. Maybe happiness is what wakes you up at 5. Maybe happiness isn't about what's good for you and what's bad for you; maybe it isn't that complex. Maybe happiness is a simple smile :$
Happiness is all around.
Find it, and hold on to it. Don't waste it and don't abuse it.
Love what makes you happy and be happy for what you love.
late nights keep me young
I've been getting to bed early in the morning the past couple nights. I look for things like coming home at two in the morning to keep me young. It keeps me alive.
I watched a movie the other day where there was a quote that I really liked. It said, "I might hate you more, but I'll never love you less."
That's a great quote because you can hate a person, but love them. In some cases you can hate almost everything about a person but still love them. Obviously these aren't the best types of relationships, but if you find yourself in one don't worry about it. Don't feel like you're compromising yourself if you continue loving someone you really should hate.
The heart and mind are two distinctly different operating systems. One tells you to do what's safe and the other tells you to do what makes you happy. Getting the two to agree harmoniously is nearly impossible. In almost all aspects of life your head and your heart will clash. I know mine do. In both big things and small.
I wish that what felt the best was truly the healthiest for us. Think about it. All the good tasting foods are unhealthy. All the healthy foods aren't any fun. Love is like that too sometimes. You find yourself liking something that isn't good for you. Sometimes you can't decide what you want and you end up stuck between different alternatives. Some seem healthy but the others seem more enjoyable. Usually you don't know what was best for you until it's gone.
Maybe the safest way to play it is to try out everything you can. Spread your love around and see where it sticks. See where your time and effort is returned and stick with that person. Wasting your love on someone undeserving is a sad, sad thing to do. However, if you truly think they're worth it, then the love isn't wasted. You can't waste love if you truly love something. Sure you might not be helping yourself out, but there is something to be said about persistence. About believing.
If you love someone dare to send that text out of the blue saying so. Don't fear the rejection, hope for that one response.
Don't let the fear of love not being returned keep you from loving.
NP: No Interruption- Hoodie Allen
I watched a movie the other day where there was a quote that I really liked. It said, "I might hate you more, but I'll never love you less."
That's a great quote because you can hate a person, but love them. In some cases you can hate almost everything about a person but still love them. Obviously these aren't the best types of relationships, but if you find yourself in one don't worry about it. Don't feel like you're compromising yourself if you continue loving someone you really should hate.
The heart and mind are two distinctly different operating systems. One tells you to do what's safe and the other tells you to do what makes you happy. Getting the two to agree harmoniously is nearly impossible. In almost all aspects of life your head and your heart will clash. I know mine do. In both big things and small.
I wish that what felt the best was truly the healthiest for us. Think about it. All the good tasting foods are unhealthy. All the healthy foods aren't any fun. Love is like that too sometimes. You find yourself liking something that isn't good for you. Sometimes you can't decide what you want and you end up stuck between different alternatives. Some seem healthy but the others seem more enjoyable. Usually you don't know what was best for you until it's gone.
Maybe the safest way to play it is to try out everything you can. Spread your love around and see where it sticks. See where your time and effort is returned and stick with that person. Wasting your love on someone undeserving is a sad, sad thing to do. However, if you truly think they're worth it, then the love isn't wasted. You can't waste love if you truly love something. Sure you might not be helping yourself out, but there is something to be said about persistence. About believing.
If you love someone dare to send that text out of the blue saying so. Don't fear the rejection, hope for that one response.
Don't let the fear of love not being returned keep you from loving.
NP: No Interruption- Hoodie Allen
Last Day
Straka, today is your last day before you're a senior. Enjoy today buddy, you deserve it. I'm gonna miss you next year Straka, I hope you keep in touch and let me know when the blogs aren't up to par. I need someone as critical as you to keep me in line. Especially next year when I'm in the city that never sleeps.
NP: Drops of Jupiter- Train
NP: Drops of Jupiter- Train
Monday, June 4, 2012
silent swagger vs. undeserved arrogance
This blog should hit home with several of my friends because we all seem to agree on the idea I'm about to mention.
That idea is this:
Having a silent swagger is acceptable when you've accomplished something in your time in high school, but some kids have a cockiness about them when they have achieved nothing in their high school career.
I can think of plenty of senior guys who walked around the halls like they were the best thing to touch West Allegheny's halls. In reality these kids were the quitters. They were the kids who hung out with and drank with freshman. They were the ones who were talking to or dating the freshman. They were the same kids popping pills and sleeping in class. They walked around like they were better than everyone else when in reality they hadn't worked for or earned an ounce of respect. Not in my eyes at least.
The kids I respect are the ones who walk around with what Coach Palko referred to as a "silent swagger." These are the kids who know what they've done and they don't need to pretend to be better than everyone else. They don't talk the biggest game but they know deep down what they're capable of. They have faith in their abilities but never feel the need to tell others about that faith. They'll tell you what they can and can't do, and they'll still do their damnedest to achieve even what appears to be out of their reach. They're the kids I respect the most.
If you have something to be cocky about, avoid being cocky and instead conceal it in your own little form of silent swagger. Don't walk around and act like you're the biggest and baddest. Let the kids with nothing to be confident about do that. You'll be able to see through it and in the end you'll be the more successful one.
You don't need someone to tell you that you're a better person, you just have to know it.
NP: Open Your Eyes- Snow Patrol
That idea is this:
Having a silent swagger is acceptable when you've accomplished something in your time in high school, but some kids have a cockiness about them when they have achieved nothing in their high school career.
I can think of plenty of senior guys who walked around the halls like they were the best thing to touch West Allegheny's halls. In reality these kids were the quitters. They were the kids who hung out with and drank with freshman. They were the ones who were talking to or dating the freshman. They were the same kids popping pills and sleeping in class. They walked around like they were better than everyone else when in reality they hadn't worked for or earned an ounce of respect. Not in my eyes at least.
The kids I respect are the ones who walk around with what Coach Palko referred to as a "silent swagger." These are the kids who know what they've done and they don't need to pretend to be better than everyone else. They don't talk the biggest game but they know deep down what they're capable of. They have faith in their abilities but never feel the need to tell others about that faith. They'll tell you what they can and can't do, and they'll still do their damnedest to achieve even what appears to be out of their reach. They're the kids I respect the most.
If you have something to be cocky about, avoid being cocky and instead conceal it in your own little form of silent swagger. Don't walk around and act like you're the biggest and baddest. Let the kids with nothing to be confident about do that. You'll be able to see through it and in the end you'll be the more successful one.
You don't need someone to tell you that you're a better person, you just have to know it.
NP: Open Your Eyes- Snow Patrol
Strange Monday
Today is my first Monday as a high school graduate. Yesterday was the first Sunday I wasn't worried about school the next day. Now that it's here, being graduated that is, I don't know what to do with all this free time. I guess we all grew comfortable in having school and having to wake up every day.
I wouldn't say I miss it just yet, but I think in time I might.
Today is June 4th and I leave for Disney World in 6 days. I won't be home until June 23rd. I'm super excited to spend 5 days with Pap, Jenny, and Maura before I head on senior trip for a week with my best friends. I can't even begin to explain my excitement for that week in Hilton Head.
7 best friends alone in a house for a week. Not to mention we're at the beach. What more could I ask for? It is guaranteed to be a week full of memories. I'm sure that years from now senior trip will be a time that sticks out in my head as one of the best times of my life. Want to know what the best part of my senior trip will be?
I'm going to remember it all.
I'm going to remember it all because I won't be using drugs or alcohol to "enhance" my fun. Instead I'll be drinking water and Gatorade and playing soccer on the beach. I'll be lounging, reading a book next to my best friends not playing pong in some shady ass house. I don't have a problem with drinking, well with responsible drinking, personally I don't need it.
I plan on my senior trip consisting of the following...
I wouldn't say I miss it just yet, but I think in time I might.
Today is June 4th and I leave for Disney World in 6 days. I won't be home until June 23rd. I'm super excited to spend 5 days with Pap, Jenny, and Maura before I head on senior trip for a week with my best friends. I can't even begin to explain my excitement for that week in Hilton Head.
7 best friends alone in a house for a week. Not to mention we're at the beach. What more could I ask for? It is guaranteed to be a week full of memories. I'm sure that years from now senior trip will be a time that sticks out in my head as one of the best times of my life. Want to know what the best part of my senior trip will be?
I'm going to remember it all.
I'm going to remember it all because I won't be using drugs or alcohol to "enhance" my fun. Instead I'll be drinking water and Gatorade and playing soccer on the beach. I'll be lounging, reading a book next to my best friends not playing pong in some shady ass house. I don't have a problem with drinking, well with responsible drinking, personally I don't need it.
I plan on my senior trip consisting of the following...
- early workouts with Graz and anyone else in the house who decides to join
- running and some footy
- long days at the beach
- getting stung by jellyfish, soccer, football, and reading
- enjoyable dinners with my friends
- Uncle Dick's restaurant and family style dinners
- late nights just talking with the people I care about most
This blog was supposed to be about how weird this Monday has been, and maybe the fact that this blog is all over the place shows just how scatterbrained I am.
NP: 1958- A Day To Remember
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